The Weight Is A Gift...

"Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said: "My grace is all you need. My power is best in weakness."" 2 Corinthians 12:8-9

Three different times Paul begged... He came to God maybe alot like i have lately... In my car, yelling, screaming, crying, feeling angry, bitter, broken, used, shallow, selfish, and utterly, utterly wretched.

I came to this verse in one of these bittersweet moments...and I was taken to this place where I saw myself laying in the lap of God...sleeping...as he held me close he whispered "my grace is all you need. My power is best in weakness." He said it over and over...I felt at the moment that my soul was rising from the depths.

See, all the time we find ourselves in these spots where it feels as if nothing makes sense and it hurts... you can literally feel your stomach and heart ignite as you can't figure out the reasons why. But my friends, I'm learning...

Its beautiful.

God is perfect. He is the perfect friend. He is the perfect father. He is the perfect creator...

Rely.

Like me, you can yell, scream, cry, and you can try and wrap your head around the way that this world spins...but in the end...

Give in.

In the passage above, Paul goes on to say how he can find pride in being weak. I can't say that I have ever felt that way. The last year of my life has been the most challenging roller coaster I've ever been on and when I am feeling like things are out of line, my first instinct is to control. But what does God say?

"My grace is all you need."

That means, I dont need the worlds approval, I don't need to control, I don't need to fake like its all ok. All i need is God's all sufficient grace. Nothing else matters and when that grace is relied on...it brings you to a place where the mountains move effortlessly...so take the trials as a blessing cause guess what?

You are about to witness God in that trial...and He is GOING to move massively...and it will come together better than anything you could come up with.