My daily bread...

I think the biggest struggle in my attempt to be like Christ is my distractions and all the things I have to do; worship teams, bands, working, meetings, and so forth...all these things are usually what I use to justify the time that I'm too busy for God and can't commit time in a day to Him.

I'm not even going to begin to give you the impression that my life has been great...in fact the last six months or so have quite honestly been the worst times of my life. I have found myself always feeling like I'm lost in the woods and God is just sitting there not saying anything knowing exactly where I should be. I've been actually quite angry at God and the fact that I feel like he's not being of any help at all...but in the last week or so I have come to the realization that I have been trying to find my way. I haven't asked Him what He desires as far as how I should go about things...it's been a very "me, me me,"mentality.

My very problem lately is that I have been frustrated with people who say they love me and their actions would beg to differ entirely. It has been quite an up and down rollercoaster and I've been so angry and bitter towards alot of people.

But how have my actions towards God been any different? I claim to love God with all my heart, I claim to follow Him. But how have my actions aligned with my words?

They haven't...at all.

When you love someone, you desire to sacrifice your desires for them. I haven't been willing to sacrifice anything lately!

A few days ago, so much anxiety and fear built up in me that I had no where else to go except to Him; and let me tell you...there is freedom in turning off the t.v., shutting off your computer AND your phone, blasting the iPOD with some phenomenal worship and soaking, praying, finding out and experiencing Gods love. I'm not saying this is how you have to do it by any means but it worked for me and i HAVE to be with Him. I NEED to make time for Him...my true love...He has never lied to me, he has never hurt me, and will never do so. How can i not make time for such a great friend?


With all distractions aside,
Aaron